What!!!!!!!!!!! am I silent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Being Multilinguistic helps u a lot when you are at a place where you can never expect to find a group of people from same region.. When we are outside home and its like we have to find an accommodation it’s obvious that we prefer people from same state. But when outside India, we go for Indians irrespective of whichever part of India he/she is from.

I really haven’t felt adjusting is too difficult unless we dig into matters. Digging in ofcourse complicates things. Jus leave the way things come and pass. After all its Acceptance that matters. I have learned "ANYTHING + POSITIVE EMOTION is ACCEPTANCE." It’s difficult to practice most of the times but if we are prepared or have a mindset it would not be difficult.
I wanna talk for the title I mentioned. Am I Silent!!!!!!!!! I am going back a week to talk on this.. I had been for a long weekend trip. I was with a group which had a majority spoken language as Tamil. I can understand Tamil for sure. Anything that happened funny was conversed in the majority language. Though I can understand and enjoy the humor I badly felt I was going silent. Inside got a feel to talking many stuffs I felt funny and so on.. But language became a hindrance here. Ofcourse we do have the common language to communicate and express but after all own mother tongue helps you express more. :):)

Thoughts were running over my mind. Anything I found, I had a lot to talk about them. Everything I saw on the way looked beautiful and I wanna express its beauty but here I failed cos of the lack of fluency in the majority language. It isn’t ofcourse difficult to learn a language but expressing is. That moment is when I felt what’s happening, Am unable to talk and express. People usually wanna me be to be silent and now I feel am extremely silent. I have a friend who once gave me a Chewing Gum jus to keep me silent. Also pulled me to a game in which I have to be silent for an hour and then the turn would be his. For few hours I hated my silence cos i felt my silence is gonna make people think am no way enjoying their company though I really was. I realized in my mind's eye its always better to know a feeling of silence at times so that i can spend sometime for me and was pleased as a punch.

I learned times of silence helps know ourselves better. Its jus no noise coming out of you but your mind and heart talks a lot. I enjoyed the silence.